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i think i am going to quit rp and not even my slps will give a shit
i really don't know which comm to pick anymore. this is not a cry for recs just me vaguely gesturing at everything and running out of energy
nd anon here and i’d like to join a comm but ic chatting is so hard for me. any recommendations on how to work on this?
i hate that anons becomes a terrible place eventually but i also hate that i like hanging around just for the nonsense small talk and the occasional lol
now i have nothing to read through while i'm bored at work
(Anonymous)
2023-09-06 09:16 am (UTC)(link)
i've never posted in anons before out of fear, but i really want it to be known that as someone who used to be a really shitty slp to a lot of people, not to be a bully on purpose or anything like that but because i had a lot of things going on in my real life that i had no idea how to deal with and rp became an unhealthy crutch of sorts (absolutely not an excuse, i completely understand that), i've done a lot of work to be a better person both offline and online. i'm genuinely trying to be better for not only myself, but the people around me, and that includes people on this server. i apologize and want to say how sorry i am that i ever made this hobby a negative experience for people, it was never ever my intention even if that also isn't an excuse. i feel horrible hearing other people's stories about other bullies and abusers, and knowing i'm still brought up here and there for things i take full accountability for. i hope that anyone i've upset or triggered or something worse finds peace, whether it's in this hobby or just in general. i still rp, taking breaks inbetween, but it's not such an intense thing for me where i act up and do things i absolutely should not do to other people. i've been harassed and mistreated by a lot of people that i thought i was the only one being targeted, and there's solidarity and validation in knowing it wasn't in fact just me, but being on the other end of it has also put me in the shoes of the people i harmed. please know how sorry i am, please know that i've taken steps to be a better human, and please know that as a writer, i will never make anyone feel the way i did ever again. sending love to you all, including the people i never wrote with or interacted with. the world is ugly and i'm so so sorry that i ever was a part of that
2023-09-06 09:16 am (UTC)(link)
i've never posted in anons before out of fear, but i really want it to be known that as someone who used to be a really shitty slp to a lot of people, not to be a bully on purpose or anything like that but because i had a lot of things going on in my real life that i had no idea how to deal with and rp became an unhealthy crutch of sorts (absolutely not an excuse, i completely understand that), i've done a lot of work to be a better person both offline and online. i'm genuinely trying to be better for not only myself, but the people around me, and that includes people on this server. i apologize and want to say how sorry i am that i ever made this hobby a negative experience for people, it was never ever my intention even if that also isn't an excuse. i feel horrible hearing other people's stories about other bullies and abusers, and knowing i'm still brought up here and there for things i take full accountability for. i hope that anyone i've upset or triggered or something worse finds peace, whether it's in this hobby or just in general. i still rp, taking breaks inbetween, but it's not such an intense thing for me where i act up and do things i absolutely should not do to other people. i've been harassed and mistreated by a lot of people that i thought i was the only one being targeted, and there's solidarity and validation in knowing it wasn't in fact just me, but being on the other end of it has also put me in the shoes of the people i harmed. please know how sorry i am, please know that i've taken steps to be a better human, and please know that as a writer, i will never make anyone feel the way i did ever again. sending love to you all, including the people i never wrote with or interacted with. the world is ugly and i'm so so sorry that i ever was a part of that
good on them but you will never catch me with an apology because i know the jerk who is saying things doesn’t deserve one especially with the callous nature of their lies
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